I know there's a lot of people out there that would kill to be in my position, regardless, of all the symptoms that I'm going through with this pregnancy.
Currently at 19 1/2 weeks I am still puking. As I enter the middle of my second trimester I wonder when things will ease up for good? I'm thankful that I'm no longer sick throughout the entire day, but I hate this feeling of always being on edge, anticipating the possibility that food will not stay down. I say this now...I totally understand why some couples only have one child.
One thing I didn't realize during pregnancy was the emotions I would be experiencing. When I watch something on TV that is sweet or traumatic, I bawl. After feeling so sick I was beginning to feel so depressed and so hopeless because I felt that there was no end in sight. I never want people to think of me as a wuss so when people ask me (that I don't know very well) how I'm feeling, I lie and put on a smile and say that I'm fine. Then the very next minute I'm in the bathroom sick. Even Eric has a difficult time just hearing me puke. I don't blame him, the sight of it all is very disturbing and the taste in my mouth lingers even after I brush my teeth. All of this leads to me feeling depressed...and then guilty for feeling depressed because I know more than one person that would give anything to be experiencing what I am feeling.
At this point I know that I'm pregnant, but I just feel huge. I'm longing to feel the baby move. I don't feel any "flutters." Everyone tells me to appreciate the fact that I don't feel anything, but I'm ready for a constant reminder that I am sick for a wonderful reason.
On other good news, Eric and I will get to find out the sex of the baby on Tuesday, if it cooperates. I am anxious to know so we can begin picking out names, register for things, and prepare our home for the new addition to our family.
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Nancy, I'm really happy for you guys!
I hope your stomach will stop bothering you soon.
Don't beat yourself up about it, Nancy! The last thing you need on top of feeling awful is guilt about feeling awful! But I know what you mean, because I too know I am a lucky woman, but it doesn't keep me from getting down about things. You just can't help yourself.
Anyway, I certainly hope that your sickness subsides so that you can be more comfortable and enjoy your pregnancy more. The 2nd trimester is *usually* the best one, in terms of energy... Take care of yourself; naps are especially deserved right now! XOXO, Beth
you have the right to your feelings nancy. even though there are probably many people who wish that they were pregnant that arent. however, i highly doubt that any of them wish to be in your shoes with all of the illness u r having with it. it is ok to feel the way u r feeling and we all hope that u feel better soon so that u can enjoy at least part of your pregnancy.
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